I sometimes use my blog as an outlet to express my thoughts that I have a hard time talking about. I hope you will allow me to do this today, as I can’t seem to shake some of the events I have heard the last week that involved innocent girls my age dying.
Before I tell the stories, the reason I am writing this post is not to be philosophical. I am writing it because I sometimes feel guilty that I complain of the most trivial nonsense and I then let that linger in my after-thoughts. Last week, was a very hard week for me- it was hard because I had deadlines on my blog to meet, had a tough work week, had sick children, had a migraine- yada…yada..yada. I told you that it was all trivial in respect but nonetheless, I drowned myself in Ben & Jerry’s and felt sorry for myself.
Then I wake up the next morning to hear the tragic story of a girl (slightly less in age than me) who was veering off the highway at the exit to my house. She was 9 months pregnant and a big SUV-type truck was driving behind her. The driver of the truck claimed to have looked down to find his wallet that he dropped, and rammed into her going 50 mph while she was at a complete stop. Needless to say, she died and left behind a beautiful baby boy, who was born on the same day she died. The paramedics kept her alive long enough to be able to perform a c-section, and then her body shut down. This was her first child.
I remember I was thinking was how unfair this all was. Here was a girl, who was set to live a brand new life as a new mom, and she had her life ended so tragically. I went to sleep that night thinking about it and have not stopped since. Then a few days, ago another story surfaced on the news, with again young adults (my age) tragically losing their lives.
I attended an event last Thursday in Newport with some of my Rhode Island friends. It was an extremely foggy night and I remember telling my friend to make sure she drives very carefully, as it was hard to see. We arrived home safely that night. The very next morning, I receive a call that three girls- all 39- were killed in a car wreck right at the very same spot that I drove the night before. The cause of the car crash was them accidentally driving their car into the harbor and drowning. The cause: fog.
So, over the past week, I just can’t shake these feelings of how life is so short and can be taken from us in a moment’s instance. I have made a promise to myself to make sure I live each day to the fullest and I vow you all to do the same too. It is really important to make sure we don’t get hung up over the trivial circumstances in our lives and not let them invade our minds. Make sure you tell your children and significant others how much you love them. Do it everyday even if you are rushing out the door that day. Make it a priority to celebrate the joy of life we have all been given and relish our time on this earth. Do what we set out to achieve and lead a happy, fulfilled life.
I know I am changing my whole mentality of how much I used to dwell over the littlest problems. I am not doing that anymore… I want to be happy and live life to the fulfillest.
I am not sure what I am truly getting out of this post but I do feel better writing it, as it has been eating at me for the past few days. I have had trouble sleeping thinking of all these stories, so I wanted to write about it, for some closure and to allow myself to grieve for these women, even if I didn’t know them, and move on to try to really cherish life. Thank you for allowing me share.